12 May 2014

12 May 2014
Then one cold Saturday in February we had an all-day [primal] marathon and I had the most profound experience of my life. On that dav I fell in love for the first time. It was the first time because my head, heart and body were involved. I was no longer stone cold rigid and unavailable. I experienced my own beauty that day, as a woman, as a person. I really felt it on the inside. I loved everyone as they were. With each person and with each moment I was different. I saw their perfection and I also saw their limits. I was not judging. I was just appreciating. I went through a door to a place I could only call whole, clear vision. A sight that sees all undisturbedly. The endless self judgements had quieted. I was. I felt very young, open, vulnerable, not afraid and at peace.

This extract from a participant speaks to me – we sometimes forget what therapy is all about. I want to keep alive that hope, that insight always.


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